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It's not so much that I forget things as it is that I usually remember most of them soon after forgetting, but too late to do any good. Today at the store I forgot the loaf of bread. That means no peanut butter sandwiches until I can get hold of a loaf. I have no idea what to substitute for my standard lunch, or for how long I'll have to do it. Most of what I forget is not so immediately disruptive to my normal pattern, and I'm a bit surprised that I've done something this stupid. I'm going to blame the heat, even though it isn't as hot as it was all those weeks I didn't forget the bread. It's easier to have something inanimate to blame.
Though I should probably blame my bank. Both of its ATMs were out of order today, so I had to use the card at Safeway, and that threw me of a bit. Unexpected things usually do. Essentially I have but to ways of dealing with the world: complete tunnel vision, in which I am so focused on the task at hand as I expect it to be that anything unexpected throws it into disarray; and scattered, in which I am so unfocused that I'm going to do stupid things anyway. Shopping is definitely a tunnel vision task. Watching television is a scattered task, and it's not unusual for me to come to the end of a program with a very tenuous grasp on what I've just seen because my mind kept wandering. Happily there are some shows that can keep me focused, but often I prefer the ones that let me woolgather without any real loss (thanks, Rob Dyrdek.)
The stores were also out of a couple of things I wanted, so there'll be some creative improvisation needed for meals this week, unless I can get somebody to haul my sorry, non-motorist arse off to shop some more. I did, however, get a pleasant surprise in a slight sale on a certain brand of frozen tamales which I like but seldom buy because they are a bit too pricey. I got the last bag on the shelf, and I think the store (or maybe the company that makes them) might be closing out the line, so this might be the last I ever get. That's always happening with stuff I like. My tastes must be out of step with the mainstream (and it's funny how the backwater I live in is so relentlessly mainstream.)
But tonight I get to cool off a bit more than I have recently. I didn't have to turn the air conditioner on at all, and the windows are already open and the fan bringing in the cool night air. There's actually a very pretty sunset happening right now, and I think I'm going to go outside an enjoy it.
( Sunday Verse )
Though I should probably blame my bank. Both of its ATMs were out of order today, so I had to use the card at Safeway, and that threw me of a bit. Unexpected things usually do. Essentially I have but to ways of dealing with the world: complete tunnel vision, in which I am so focused on the task at hand as I expect it to be that anything unexpected throws it into disarray; and scattered, in which I am so unfocused that I'm going to do stupid things anyway. Shopping is definitely a tunnel vision task. Watching television is a scattered task, and it's not unusual for me to come to the end of a program with a very tenuous grasp on what I've just seen because my mind kept wandering. Happily there are some shows that can keep me focused, but often I prefer the ones that let me woolgather without any real loss (thanks, Rob Dyrdek.)
The stores were also out of a couple of things I wanted, so there'll be some creative improvisation needed for meals this week, unless I can get somebody to haul my sorry, non-motorist arse off to shop some more. I did, however, get a pleasant surprise in a slight sale on a certain brand of frozen tamales which I like but seldom buy because they are a bit too pricey. I got the last bag on the shelf, and I think the store (or maybe the company that makes them) might be closing out the line, so this might be the last I ever get. That's always happening with stuff I like. My tastes must be out of step with the mainstream (and it's funny how the backwater I live in is so relentlessly mainstream.)
But tonight I get to cool off a bit more than I have recently. I didn't have to turn the air conditioner on at all, and the windows are already open and the fan bringing in the cool night air. There's actually a very pretty sunset happening right now, and I think I'm going to go outside an enjoy it.
( Sunday Verse )
