52/343: While

Feb. 8th, 2026 06:46 pm
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Been feeling mostly crappy all day, and more so as it passed. There's really nothing to be done at such times. Usually I just watch videos. Funny ones to cheer me up and music to distract me when the cheering fails, as it tends to do. I could have gone to bed early, but then I'd have just woken up too early in the chilly dark being sad. I can't put it off any longer though. I hope I'll be tired enough not to notice how uncomfortable I am. Then it will be possible to sleep, at least for a while.


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Feb. 8th, 2026 09:27 am
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I was in a text convo with Bonny about what we could/should do, if anything when there was another knock at the door. It was Jim. 'can you come see?'. This is how he always starts. So I said sure. And I opened the door to his apartment and his TV was on and there was a football game on it!!! His care giver had come and just hit the power button.

In retrospect, it kind of makes sense. I assumed this TV was on and had just blipped off which is what it had done in the past and, in the past, a simple unplug/replug fixed it. This time it did not fix it. Because, apparently, it was not turned on.

Holy fuck and thankyoujesus for care givers!

Also, I'm kind of impressed (and grateful) that he came to tell me. Now I am going to go enjoy the day!

He's really not my problem

Feb. 8th, 2026 08:43 am
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Jim Across The Hall's television went out again this morning. Rebooting didn't bring it back to life. He has a TV in the bedroom but it doesn't work either. It's Sunday, no one here to fix or help. All he likes is sports. No Olympics for him, no Superbowl for him. He has nothing to do. But, I have no fix. He can barely operate the remote control. I don't know if he knows how to call his son or his one friend who comes now and again. He just should not be living on his own. Maybe this will be the catalyst to get him what he needs.

I did text Bonny and told her. Maybe she has an idea. I'm out and now sweaty. Moving his furniture to get to an alternate outlet.

BUT I did get in a nice swim. The pool was crowded! Well, there are four lanes and there were four swimmers but that's crowded. It's reassuring for the pool program to see other swimmers.

Except for Jim, and me, everyone else around here is focused on the Superbowl.

I'm all caught up on my chores. The clothes are clean and the kitchen is tidy. I have creatures to knit and TV to watch. I was thinking that I was sorry I gave away my little TV or I'd take it over to Jim's but it's really doubtful he could watch it because it's not the same as his and it would freak him out, probably so just as well. I need to quit stressing about him.

This week I have my eye appointment. new doctor. A or B, click when you see the light, etc. I really don't love eye appointments. So it will be good to get it over with.

Biggie is not loving 5 pills a day. And he and Julio are still not 100% into the new food situation. But, I haven't seen any indication that they are working on picket signs. or calling PETA.
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It appears that I've grown sick of the whole eating meals thing, as I haven't done it for a while. Friday night I thought about making a meal but gave up and opened a can of soup. I can't remember Thursday but I'm pretty sure I ate something other than a meal that night too. Tonight I'm feeling pretty resistant to the very idea of mealness, but can't think of an adequate substitute. In the meantime I've spoiled what appetite I had by snacking on candy. There was a part of a Toblerone bar, and now there isn't.

Oh, I've just recalled I have popcorn. Popcorn is an excellent meal avoidant. It is almost food itself, and can be buttered. If something has butter on it, my mind is inclined to consider it a near-meal. I might find it easier to sleep after that.

But weather. The highs in the sixties will continue for a couple more days, but Wednesday will be chilly and will probably bring some actual rain. Actual rain will be nice for a change. I can't think of a single reason not to be pleased with the prospect. Maybe it will even give me an appetite for an actual meal. Stranger things have happened. In fact stranger things are pretty common. No need to be excited. Especially so close to bedtime. As soon as I eat that popcorn.

Shortened Friday

Feb. 7th, 2026 09:09 am
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Yesterday only had about 8 hours in it for me. The other 16 were swallowed up by one of those stupid snake/arrow maze games that I never heard of until yesterday but Spiffikins fixed that. I tried hard to put it down but the fucking phone kept snapping back into my hand. Good thing I wasn't scheduled to save someone's life or something.

And, by the way, the Google Play Store has now crossed the line to nearly unusable. You search for a specific app and the first four choices you are given are not anything close to what you want but those who have paid Google a fat fee to be at the top. Half of the very useful search filters no longer work. They are so hepped up on this points thing that that is all you can see. If you don't give a flying fuck about their points, you still have to wade through the shit to get to anything. Ok, thanks for the rant space. But, geesh. I'm sure there are some really good apps in there hidden in the crap.

I'm kind of over tracking stuff. I was tracking a bunch of stuff. Then just food/weight/Wegovy stuff and now I'm over that. I kind of have a feel for how many calories/protein/etc, I'm consuming every day and I don't really care anyway. I'm going back to eating the way I want - when I'm hungry and not when I'm not. I have an understanding of what my Wegovy body wants and can tolerate comfortably. I can always go back to tracking if I decide that's fine.

Every Saturday now, Jim Across The Hall, taps on my door at 9 to ask what time is time to go down to the elbow (10). Tap tap tap 'quick question'. It's very Ground Hog. We just had today's tap. He's usually with a care giver and I get the feeling I'm a tie breaker in their argument. He's getting worse every single day. I wish they would come move him to somewhere he has constant care.

Volleyball was pretty meh. Bad actors and bad attitudes. But, good exercise and Judith, who probably hasn't played in a year, showed up, so it was fun to see her.

The little shop downstairs serves THE best yogurt in the world. They add a few berries and some crunchy stuff that it does not need but it's just so much better than anything I've found in the grocery. Finally last night, I got the server to go investigate and find out what kind it was. Turns out it's a special Yoplait that only comes in gynormous bags for wholesale. But, Gemini says their Yoplait Greek might come close to the quality. I'll have to find/test. If not, I'll just always get it at the shop and dig the berries out. The crunch is sometimes good.

Today after elbow coffee will be laundry. But, that's really the only thing on the to-do list. Unless, of course, my phone needs more arrow/snake-ing.

Sorry, Spiffikins

Feb. 6th, 2026 08:20 am
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Before she even had surgery, I should have sent her a list of my current phone games. But, certainly when she first mentioned playing games on her phone but no... it took me days and now she's nearly recovered. So I'm just posting these links here. These are the games I play on my phone every day. And, yes, I should do something useful with my time but I don't so there. Android only.


And in other news. I saw this on YouTube last night - mayo omelette and tried it this morning. One egg, 1 tablespoon of mayo whipped together. Into a ramekin or bowl - nuke for 1 minute. Turn it upside down onto a plate. It is really pretty and very light and delicious!! Better if you grease the bowl (or spray it) but I didn't and it was fine. This was really just flat out good. I also had a piece of toast. The toast took longer, start to finish, than the omelette!

Apparently we're in a bit of a truce situation here aka cat food. They both ate their full and ate a lot and no whining. Biggie's not even out here begging for a treat. I'm sure this is a one day fluke but yeah?

The sun is out but I already got my swim in so I don't care. Soon, however, it's going to be a real issue and I haven't figured out what to do about it. Damn sun.

My brother and nephew are coming in June. The centerpiece of the visit are the 3 Mariner/RedSox games. Two on Saturday and one on Sunday. Except, they have now moved the Saturday afternoon game to Friday. This is good news and bad. The U.S. v. Austrailia World cup game is also Friday in a stadium 1/2 block from the Mariner game. It starts mid-day. So, hopefully, by the time we get to the Mariner game - 6ish, there will be lots of parking recently vacated. Hopefully. It's going to be a mad house regardless but my brother is very 'don't worry, be happy, it will all work out' about the whole thing and I trust him so ok. We have tickets. And, by the time June gets here, the picture of good options will be more clear.

In my mind, wearing short sleeves t-shirts, print or solid, under buttoned down oversized shirts, is a thing I like. I have a fair number for the shirts. But, I never wear them. I've just gotten too used to knitted, stretchy fabric. I wore one of the shirts yesterday and felt like someone had me pinned down. I think all those shirts are going to be rehomed. It will give the closet some nice breathing room.

I had a bit of a conundrum over this Trump drug program. It is advertised as lower drug prices directly from the manufacturer and includes Wegovy. Before I even looked, I had a debate about what I would do if the price is lower than what I'm paying. How could I possibly put my money into one of his programs and live with myself. Turns out, nothing burger. The price on his website is exactly what I'm paying with NovoCare. So he's giving me the sleeves from his vest. And they don't fit.

I might pop over to the Dollar Store today. Maybe.

52/341: Whyever

Feb. 5th, 2026 08:31 pm
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Thursday afternoon's high here got all the way up to 72. It was nice to have the windows open for a couple of hours, but it might be even nicer if we get the showers the forecast is predicting for late next week. In fact there could be quite a bit of shower activity through the rest of February. These, I suppose, are the April showers of legend, but come early. And the dog days of summer? Those will be ravening wolf days.

Oh crap, I lost track of time again and it's after midnight. Wanted to post this yesterday. The day I had a peanut butter sandwich for diner. Life has become a battle to the death with the clock. The clock always wins.

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Feb. 5th, 2026 08:41 am
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So way back when I first started this Wegovy thing, I was quite twitchy about using NovoCare. They communicate via texts - no account set up, etc. No warm and fuzzy emails telling me they have my order. Initially, it was even weirder. I tried to call the number I was given 'for questions' and ended up on hold for nearly and hour, twice, before I gave up.

Yesterday on the eve of my third dose, I was wondering how the refill will happen. On my box, it tells me I have 3 refills and I do have the RX number and a different phone number to call. So I tried again. This time it was answered nearly immediately by a woman who instantly looked up my account and transferred me to the pharmacy - also answered immediately by a nice guy who said I would get another text with a link 'here, I'll go ahead and send it now' and he did. I clicked and paid and selected a delivery date. Still no warm and fuzzies, no account set up. Nothing. They just send me a text every time. But at least now I know the phone thing works.

Third shot in. Got to use the leg with the numb spot this time. That's my fav. My doctor said it would make my brain think my stomach was full. Reddit says I will feel less compelled to eat. Both of these are proving to be true. The first week or so I figured it was psychosomatic (I think everything is). But, now I'm 'getting' it. I am eating less. And I'm perfectly fine with it. I know what eating less and wishing I could eat more feels like and this isn't that. This is different. And expensive. Assuming I keep on using Wegovy once a week and the coverage doesn't change (my insurance does not cover it - but NovoCare goes me a deal), this will end up costing me right at $11 a day. (The per day price is a bit easier to swallow than the per month.) At least I can afford it.

Biggie and Julio are not happy. Biggie has been sitting next to his food bowl for 30 minutes. His food bowl has food in it. But he wants dry kibble. At least he's not pestering me for treats yet.

Myrna died one year ago tomorrow.

Volleyball was good. I have to go down to the lounge and meet with Harriet at 9:30 to go over next week's agenda. I'm still naked under my robe. I really need to put clothes on before I meet her.

52/340: Oh

Feb. 5th, 2026 03:16 am
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So I'm not sure why I'm awake in the middle of the night tonight, other than that I had to take a nap around eight o'clock Wednesday evening and didn't eat dinner, and most likely it was hunger that woke me up just a few hours later and prevented me from getting back to sleep. So here I am hungry but I really don't feel like eating, which sounds contradictory, but the thing is that eating has never been one of my favorite experiences, and as a rule I will wait until the hunger becomes more unpleasant than the act of eating and then I will eat, as the lesser of two evils.

Anyway, I'm hungry enough to be annoyed to wakefulness, but not hungry enough to actually stick something in my mouth and chew on it. If somebody else were around to actually prepare the food for me, or if there was a decent restaurant within easy walking distance (and I still had the energy to walk) I'd probably eat now, but the extra hassle of needing to decide what to eat and then fix it makes the hunger more tolerable, for now. I'll probably go on sitting here not eating for half the night, and end up regretting the sleep I could have had. Stupid stomach.

You can't spell go on without goon, and I can't say I can't goon because it's so obviously false and ridiculous, and I've just realized that that is probably why I'm still alive. Words are funny, and almost as stupid as stomachs. And brains, which often just keep on running even when they are running on empty. So.

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Feb. 4th, 2026 05:20 pm
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So since I moved here my living room tv, not a big one, and all the cable paraphernalia have been on the floor. I don't watch much in there and I didn't want to spend anything to get a table. It was far down on the list of things to buy. But I was eyeing a coffee table at the Fred Meyer's (grocery and department store in one) and there was a floor model very marked down.

The other day I said, if it's still there I'll get it. Original price about $150, bought for $42. That said, it's a wee bit too big for the space but the room has a less 'first apartment' vibe.

But the story (fascinating as it is) is even more interesting, because the same day I bought it I got a check in the mail for $53. A result of signing up for a class lawsuit suing somebody for something. A day of profit and a new table.

Win Win... nope

Feb. 4th, 2026 11:33 am
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Biggie has stones in his bladder and crystals in his urine and a fairly high ph count. The trifecta. The vet cannot figure out how to fix him. Surgery is still on the table but tabled for another month. Instead we're doubling down on one of his pills so now he takes FIVE fucking pills a day. Holy crap. AND no dry food. So Julio gets no dried food either. Neither of them are going to be happy about that.

We go back in 4 weeks, again. $365 this time. This cat could have sent a kid to college with the money he's cost me in vet bills. When I adopted him, they told me he had feline leukemia and would likely not live more than year. I expected a year of vet bills. That was 6 years ago. He does not have feline leukemia. He does have a violent obsession with keeping vets in business.

And now we wait...

Feb. 4th, 2026 08:28 am
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Will today be a $300 vet visit (scan and checkup and ALL CLEAR!!) or a $2,500 (scan and surgery) vet visit? Arugh. But the second hardest part is getting the gabapentin into Biggie and that has been done. Not easy. He takes 3 pills a day and I can pretty much get those into him without issue but the gabapentin is in a capsule and it just does not want to go in. But, it's now done and I still have all my fingers so that's a win?

He's currently passed out in the closet where I hope he stays because if he gets into one of his beds under my bed, it will be a bitch to get him out and into the carrier. It's 8:30 now and his appointment is 10:15.

I had a lovely swim this morning. I listen to music while I swim and most of my music is pre-concert stuff that was played on the radio so the songs are all about 3 minutes long. I do about 100 yards in 3 minutes (it's actually a little under that but hey, I'm rounding). So 100 yards per song. It's a nice way to count. FYI Katy Ledecki does more than 100 yards in 1 minute but I don't think she listens to music. hahahahaha

One of the guys I play volleyball with is Wally. Wally just turned 90. He'd be skiing again this winter if we had any fucking snow. He's a rather spry 90. Anyway, last weekend, his two great grandsons were here and they played in the pool and banged the volleyball around. He said they had a great time. I've been thinking about that. The kids are 13 and 15. Imagine two young boys being forced to visit really old people in a 'home' but, yet, getting to play with their great grandfather in the pool. What fabulous memories they will have.

And on the other end of the scale... when someone dies here they put out their photo with their birth and death dates. I always check their birth year to make sure they were way older than me. I was born in the 40's and usually it's 20's or 30's so whew. BUT this week some dude died who was only 4 years older than me. That's crossing a line there.

Guess I'll go do some chores til vet time.
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52/339: Bed

Feb. 3rd, 2026 07:28 pm
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Barely eight o'clock in the evening and I can barely keep my eyes open. I finally got around to eating Friday's dinner, for Tuesday breakfast, or maybe it was even brunch. Way late in any case. And I got no nap Tuesday, which is why I'm so tired right now. In lieu of Tuesday diner I just munched a cookie, and unsurprisingly found it adequate as a meal substitute. I'm sure I'll have no problem getting to sleep once I drag my carcass into the bedroom and ensconce it under those inviting, cozy covers. The mild afternoon is a distant memory, and chill is the nocturnal mode. I was about to say I wasn't going to get to sleep just sitting here, but then I went to sleep just sitting here, so definitely bedtime.

Tuesday

Feb. 3rd, 2026 08:48 am
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It's house cleaner day - pretty much my favorite day of the week. She only spends about an hour in here but really, it's perfect. Everything sparkles and the carpet stands up in rows. There is more mess around here today than usual and I'm not sure why. It won't take long to tidy and I don't really have to but it will give me that fresh start feeling which is lovely.

I got my eye appointment moved so tomorrow is Biggie only.

Volleyball was better than usual this morning. We had enough people for a good game, no one was particularly obnoxious and the play was good. The newest guy has had a hard time getting it but this morning, he did great.

I have a return to drop off at UPS. Does not have to be today but why not? I could do it while the house cleaner is here or I could just pop out this morning.

I rarely look back my sometimes glance at former years in my one-sentence-a-day five year book. This time last year I was stressed to the max about taxes and... it was snowing!! We had a few days of snow that were just lovely. This year, my taxes are all in hand but we have not the first snowflake. In fact it is supposed to hit 60 this week. Sigh.

I have made 20 Easter bunnies and would like to make at least 100. I'm going to keep making them until the end of February or until I can't stand them. I think I can get to 100 fairly easily. These have no neck ribbons yet or bunny ball tails. Martha is adding those.

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Ok. I'm not dressed yet so I probably need to do that now. It's after 9!

52/338: Might Makes Fright

Feb. 2nd, 2026 11:21 pm
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Being awake in the morning on... what was it, Monday?... I finally got around to doing a couple of loads of laundry, so I won't have to wear limp rags reeking of stale sweat for a while, but damn, I was so exhausted after five round trips sixty or so feet down the driveway from my front door to reach the laundry room that I put myself down (figuratively) for a nap about half past four, and while I slept this big ball of misery we live on turned its other side to the sun and I woke up in the chilly dark once again with a sad sigh of resignation and, just for lagniappe I guess, a crick in my neck.

So I'm sitting here in the nocturnal quiet of the mini-metropolis contemplating my next move, which I am thinking should probably be dinner. In fact it should be Friday's dinner, which I bought (checks calendar) Friday, but haven't gotten around to cooking due to the usual I-have-become-an-incompetent- old-geezer. It's a thing now, and apt to remain one terminally. When I will get around to eating Saturday, Sunday, and Monday's dinners only dog knows. But I'm pretty sure I'll get around to eating something in the next hour or so.

Oh, the forecast is saying that the high here today will be 69, and tomorrow 70, and Thursday 69 again, which means that if I remember I will be able to open the windows for a while each day and air this stagnant place out. I like an occasional warm day to break the monotony of winter, but damn, this winter's monotony has felt stolen from early spring, so what this is doing is making me worry about what hell summer may have in store for our desiccated arses. Probably best not to even think about it. I'll try to do something Alzheimery and forget that there is such a thing as a future. And anyway, I suspect that the way things have been going there actually might not be.

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Feb. 2nd, 2026 04:45 pm
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I still have the books I bought at the library sale, having finished them and wanting to give them away. Can't go back to the library, they've made it clear they've washed their hands of them. So I was looking around for Little Libraries around town. Looking on and off and then forgetting about it.

But I found one on the map that seemed to be just up the street. The next street over from where I drive to get to the stores I frequent. I thought I should just walk over there. And after a while of procrastination, I did, the other day. Well, it was a longer walk than I envisioned (isn't it always?). It was a nearly two hour walk back and forth, though I was kind of shuffling at the end. My feet were aghast at my temerity.

But I saw a new neighborhood. There's somebody selling sourdough bread or has a little cafe; that was unexpected. It's a two lane street and at one point there are houses on one side and fields on the other. And, weirdly, the individual mail boxes for the houses are on the field side. You have to cross the street to pick up your mail. Why would it be more convenient for the mail truck to go up that side then the other?

Also there aren't many sidewalks on this street. We likes to feel rural.

Monday

Feb. 2nd, 2026 08:16 am
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These days in the Pacific Northwest are rainy and cloudy in the morning and sun shiney in the afternoons. Kind of perfect. And perfect for swimming but I think I'm going to pass today just because. Maybe.

On Sundays I generally stay in my apartment (Bonny calls it hibernating) and enjoy the heck out of that. And some Mondays, like today, I just want more. I don't have anywhere I need to go except maybe downstairs to pick up Amazon packages. If they come to the lockers, I pick them up. If they are dropped off at the front desk, they get delivered in the afternoons. I never know until they get here which way they are going. Usually it's lockers, but sometimes...

My latest obsession is makers on YouTube. I watch on my TV. There's the one very excellent guy, Pask Makes, from Australia who does fascinating work and makes great videos about them. He has a ton of videos and he's fascinating. And it seems way more productive than my previous obsession with watching Instagram videos of small children speaking in British accents. (Chances are they are actually British and not cheeky American or Canadian children with great linguistic chops but who really knows???)

I am caught up in the weirdest book. And I can't quit it. I'm a bully killer no personal life loaner thriller kind of reader. When I want something light, I go for a police procedural. This book is characterized as 'delightfully charming' something I am pretty sure I've been vaccinated against. And, yet... One sentence leads to the next and I have lost my will to stop. The Road to Tender Hearts by Annie Hartnett.

So I have plenty of entertainment and not massive chores that need doing and no one who's counting on me for anything. Perfect.

A little more CCRC

Feb. 2nd, 2026 07:40 am
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Someone asked me specifically about Judson Park which is south of Seattle. I remembered seeing about it but not the detail, so this morning I looked at their website.

One of the things I did NOT want was non-profit. I'm not at all sure now that was even a valid consideration. Timber Ridge is part of a very for profit group of homes across the country. Judson Park is part of a non profit of group of homes across the country. As I look now, it seems a very viable option.

If you are at all interested in CCRC's I encourage you to read the stuff at their website, they articulate the whole thing better than anyone else I've seen.

Among many other salient points, they also say, if you have owned a home, you can usually afford to move to a CCRC. As you age, living on your own, maintaining a home becomes a far more expensive option but the costs are creeping costs. I did not even have a mortgage and still, the cost of living day to day here is on par with what it was when I was in my condo and I have far more amenities here.

Ok, I think that's it. All my thoughts. Now back to your regular programming.

52/337: Quiet Urp

Feb. 1st, 2026 08:29 am
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Getting through Sunday. I'm feeling a bit nauseated. I might have eaten something I shouldn't have, and also have developed a bit of headache. My hope was to do some laundry today, but now I'm not feeling it. There's no place to puke in the laundry room. Maybe I'll put a bit of water in my footbath basin and put it beside the bed for emergency chundering, and then just nap for a bit. Other than the nausea it's a pleasant enough day, if still a bit on the chilly side. I wish I could enjoy it.


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