Incompetent

[rejectomorph]

The blisters on my left index finger are probably shingles. I've had bouts of them before, fortunately always minor. They crop up when I'm anxious about something. This time its undoubtedly my sickly cat and my really crappy cat-care that's making me anxious. The kitty's life is just pathetic. She sleeps, she nibbles, she drinks a bit of water, and she gives me mournful looks and the occasional pitiful meow. Now and then I make her take what must be really nasty tasting medicine, though I seldom succeed in getting more than part of it into her.

She's been in this state for over a week now, without noticeable improvement. She's nothing but fur and bones and pathos. She might as well kill me and eat me, for all the good I'm doing her. I guess I'll have to take her back to the vet, who will undoubtedly scold me for my inadequate care and will confiscate the cat, and then will probably have me arrested for cat abuse. I'll be jailed at the animal shelter, where I'll be raped by my cellmates, a gang of dobermans dobermen rottweilers, but at least the cat will be placed in a home with someone who will know how to take proper care of her, so I guess the world will be a better place.

And now I'm going to go take a shower and hope that those shingle blisters don't break open while they're soapy. Ow.

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[jourdannex.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't be so hard on yourself...you are doing all that you can. Taking care of a cat that is this ill is just terribly trying :/ It's just a helpless sort of feeling. I seem to attract all the "problem" cats and my vet jokes that they all tell each other about me and have me on some sort of cat map with an X marked. Right now I am taking care of 22lb hypothyroid cat, hypertrophic cardiomyopathy cat and mentally deranged randomly-attacks-people cat who the vet believes was brain damaged as a child (someone found him in a garbage can as a baby and brought him to me) and I am at a loss he is so unpredictable..he has sent a few people to emergency rooms but I just don't have the heart to have him put down since he's physcially healthy, if I had children around I would definitely have to rehome him or figure something out.