Mood

It certainly doesn't look like rain, but rain is still predicted. I have mixed feelings about it. I'd really like some rain, but the roof hasn't been repaired yet so it's bound to leak from any substantial storm. Thunder and lighting would be nice, too, but would be very likely to knock the power out, which would be unpleasant. Things I want are incompatible with things I want. That's not unusual, but it sure is frustrating.

Recent events here have sent my always-high anxiety level soaring, and I'm finding it difficult to concentrate on anything. It would be so nice to be somewhere else, but there's nowhere else available. The critic in my head keeps condemning me for being here, and that isn't helping. There probably won't be a thunderstorm to shake me out of this mood, even temporarily.

Well, this is all way too dark. I'll shut up.