Stuff Warmed Over

[rejectomorph]

Spider under my window sill is gone. I've been so distracted I didn't notice when she left. Maybe she was another heat related casualty. Maybe she dropped to the floor and her tiny cadaver is now becoming part of the baseboard dust behind the desk. I don't like to think about what's behind the furniture. I don't like to think about what's in the air.

Advil before bed didn't work very well. I managed only a bit over two hours of sleep before being wakened by head pain. Ice application followed, leading to another two hours of sleep, interrupted two or three times so it was spread out over three hours. There were dreams of some sort, or maybe just fever hallucinations, but the memory of them is so vague I can't say for sure what they were about. I didn't like them, though.

Sun-brightened or shadow-dark, green dominates my view. At the moment, I'm not finding it very restful. My eyes have grown terribly sensitive to glare. More disturbing is the cobweb I've not yet cleaned from the outside of my window. It's full of dead insects, moths predominating. I think I'll go sweep those down right now. Then another pill and more ice. I need this to be over soon.

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[diapholom.livejournal.com]

i don't want you to die yet, mr. freud
wipe yourself with a cold towel frequently
then let it pass

[rejectomorph]

It will probably be a lingering, painful death, so I'm likely to be around complaining about it for a long time yet.

[rejectomorph]

At first, yes. It's worked well for me in the past, too. But the last couple of weeks, since the jaw symptoms appeared, it's gotten pretty steadily worse. Starting to get very worried. It might all be just the result of the badly misaligned atlas, or there might be something else that just happened to come on about the same time. I have had little to do with the medical world since I left Los Angeles (where I had an amazing doctor, now retired), so I'd be starting over if I were to get a diagnosis of what's going on now. Plus, no insurance and next to no spare money.

Getting dopey. Need sleep.