Bad

[rejectomorph]

For the last ten days, I have been enduring the highest level of sustained anxiety I have ever experienced. I have no idea what to do about it. None of the techniques I usually use are sufficent to deal with it. I feel both trapped and doomed. I am exhausted from lack of sleep, eating is difficult even when I feel hungry, each distraction quickly fails, and every attempt at reason ends in paranoid thinking. I can't sort out my thoughts about the situation enough to even explain it. Anxiety disorders bite, and the evil people who set them off bite even more. I keep wishing for some huge natural disaster, just so there will be something for me to focus my energy on. I wish I had never come to this place. May the Earth heave up and shake it out of existence.

Comments

[rubber-shirt.livejournal.com]

One good thing about the anxiety attacks is that they do pass eventually, like internal weather storms.

[rejectomorph]

True, they do, but the situations that provoke them sometimes endure. The aftermath of the adrenaline overdose is unpleasant, too. Every muscle is sore.