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[rejectomorph]

For the last ten days, I have been enduring the highest level of sustained anxiety I have ever experienced. I have no idea what to do about it. None of the techniques I usually use are sufficent to deal with it. I feel both trapped and doomed. I am exhausted from lack of sleep, eating is difficult even when I feel hungry, each distraction quickly fails, and every attempt at reason ends in paranoid thinking. I can't sort out my thoughts about the situation enough to even explain it. Anxiety disorders bite, and the evil people who set them off bite even more. I keep wishing for some huge natural disaster, just so there will be something for me to focus my energy on. I wish I had never come to this place. May the Earth heave up and shake it out of existence.

Comments

[rubber-shirt.livejournal.com]

One good thing about the anxiety attacks is that they do pass eventually, like internal weather storms.

[bunkum.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear about how you're feeling, but I find that one has some of the most interesting thoughts during these periods. Not to say that it makes it any better, it's just an interesting thing to note.

[marseille.livejournal.com]

I sympathize, I've been very stressed-out, myself, but with cause this time.
Could it be the date? Working up to expecting some disaster? Or the oppressive politics at work these days?
I hope it passes soon. (Purring cats help a bit. Take advantage of yours.)

[rejectomorph]

True, they do, but the situations that provoke them sometimes endure. The aftermath of the adrenaline overdose is unpleasant, too. Every muscle is sore.

[rejectomorph]

Similar interesting thoughts can be induced by excessive consumption of caffeine. That's a far more enjoyable way to get them. At least that way, you get to drink something tasty.

[rejectomorph]

This is a local situation. It is the result of lies, malice, incompetence, rashness, and other traits which humans often display. Evil is afoot, and it is like a Shakespeare tragedy as performed by the guests on the Jerry Springer Show. Were the threat of violence less real, or less likely to be enduring, the whole thing would be (darkly) comical. But at the moment, I'm not laughing.